I’m Jeanne and for over 20 years, I’ve been helping people all over the world believe in themselves in love, purpose, and spiritually
When you were young, did you have a vision for your life? Not a dream, a vision… because you could SEE it.
I did. I remember sitting in our synagogue, listening to the Rabbi speak and thinking: I’ll be speaking in front of people someday…
However, I was paralyzingly self-conscious. I needed to be doing or saying the right thing AT ALL TIMES.
In my early 20’s I was hired by IBM. The job included speaking in front of 500 + people and I was sick to my stomach each time. I remember after my first speech… someone told me I said “um” over 50 times… and he suggested I sign up for Toastmasters.
So, I went to Toastmasters during my lunch hour for years.
Quite honestly, I overcame my fear slightly, but not really. I still didn’t understand why I saw myself doing something I truly hated.
THE ROLLER COASTER OF DOUBT
The truth is… I saw myself doing big things with my big life and YET… in the same breath, I doubted it.
I was on the roller coaster of doubt.
I believed in myself and felt so excited to be doing something truly inspiring, that I was passionate about, AND …. I didn’t believe I had the energy, the ability, the confidence, the stick to it-iveness….
I believed everyone else would be so much better at it, so why bother…
I doubted so much.
Then, over ten years ago, my husband passed away unexpectedly, leaving me and our two young sons. I lost ALL belief in the universe.
I wanted to crawl in a hole and never come out.
However, things got very “out there” and mystical for me after that. And believe me, I’m NOT mystical by nature.
Nope. I love the ground.
THIS CHANGED MY PERCEPTION OF EVERYTHING
So basically, my husband visited me in a dream.
Yes, he did.
And it wasn’t just a dream. It was a visit. He told me there was more to my life.
He told me there was more to his life. He validated everything I knew in my heart was true, but was too afraid to go for. His visit changed my perception of everything.
This otherworldly event showed me that only the body dies, the soul lives on, and each soul has specific things it’s meant to do on earth.
After this dream, I read everything I could find on the soul. Everything I could find about purpose, meaning, and the spirit. It opened up a world of possibility.
I realized that most of the limits we place on ourselves are BS. We’re so much more… in relationships, work.. and personally.
SO I WROTE TWO BOOKS
So… I wrote two books that would express this life changing realization.
First, The Butterfly Silhouette, about personal transformation. And second, The Thought Store, about the magnificent, undeniable power of thought.
Clearly, and mean clearly … our limited thinking kills our spirit… and I’ll own that all the way to MY grave.
I BECAME MORE SOUL CENTERED
To close up the earlier story about my hatred of public speaking and my desire to lead… now enters the internet.
Guess what? You can lead others without having to fly around and speak in front of them!
However, as I grew in my commitment to my soul’s reason for being, my fear of public speaking melted away.
I became LESS self-conscious.
I became more soul centered.
As you own who you are … and care for your deepest needs, your fear lightens up.
PUSHING PAST DOUBT
Pushing past doubt is a journey. But, it’s what we’re meant to do, so that we can express our True Selves.
I still get a stomach ache when I’m working on something that’s new to me. I still doubt myself at times… but not as much.
My belief in myself and where I fit into this world is a trillion times stronger than my doubt…
And maybe, just maybe… my doubt is there to remind me what it’s like to NOT believe.